Seasons Change.

Seasons Change.

It’s Libra Season!

I love October for a lot of reasons- the weather is changing, Halloween is coming, (and we know I love an excuse to dress up!) but most of all, I love it because Aids Walk LA happens in October- and that’s how I usually celebrate my birthday.

Birthdays are always quite the time for me. If you’ve followed me awhile, you know I don’t really do the traditional New Year’s Resolutions, but every year on my birthday I look back and reflect on the past year and take stock of my life to then set some goals for the next year. October 15th is my special version of New Year’s Day.

Except for the past few years.

I haven’t had the bandwidth to sit with everything and reflect for a few years now, and it’s been hard to set goals when everything keeps changing. I end up thinking about all the momentum I lost, all the things in my life that changed- even the ones that are for the best- and I realize just how destabilizing it’s all been. I’m still grieving. I think a lot of us are. As I write this, I’m not only reminding you, but I’m saying it to myself again while acknowledging that it’s okay to feel like this. 

Do you know the difference between spider webs and cobwebs?

Spider webs are in use, but cobwebs are abandoned webs.

This Halloween, as the fake spider webs are going up, I feel my personal cobwebs clearing. I’m traveling out of the country for the first time since the pandemic started, and I’m so excited. Aids Walk is in person finally, and Team Wicked Sensual Care gets to do it together along with all the other participants. I get a birthday with promise, one I can wholeheartedly celebrate even while I’m still grieving, and this year I’m making it all about recognizing priorities and setting intentions and some very big goals.

with love,

jd